Thursday, April 19, 2012

6 Months !?!

Oh my word , I cannot believe how fast time has gone! Sweet baby Kinlee has been a true joy in our life. She is such a happy baby , it really doesn't take much to make this girl smile. She is rolling all over the place and jibber jabbing the whole time, Damon calls her Taz . She will give kisses(she gives me zerberts or Raspberries as some call it ) which i just love!She also  will sing with Damon as he plays the guitar :) She is at such a fun age! So curious about everything that is around her she wants to touch and slobber on everything she can get her hands on!
     I wanted to share this cute video to show just how fun she is. we took this video at her 6 month mark she is almost 7 now . I am just a bit behind on posting but i hope you enjoy!!!
Yes as you can see she has us wrapped around her little finger... and I wouldn't have it any other way!

Sunday, December 4, 2011

When you have a kid

A couple weeks after I had Kinlee I started to notice things have changed, I have changed , life has changed.
1. Random strangers will come up to you and start conversations most about how cute your babies is or "oh how old " Recently , just before Damon and I went into a store I had warned him of this and he said "Seriously ...really?" and with out fail a nice old man rolled up on his rascal "oh please stop I got to see that baby." I also find myself answering a bunch of personal questions to strangers...why is it my waitresses business if I am nursing or not (I have been surprised by how many people have asked that question)
2. I think when mothers give birth they then are transformed into super hero's! I can smell a dirty diaper a mile away, fix meals and eat them one handed , learned to enjoy cold meals, fit a days worth of work in while kinlee takes a 2 hour nap, and shower in less than 5 minutes.  My weekness ?  Sleep, I have to get my sleep if I don't my super human powers seem to disappear! probably needless to say most days I am more human than super hero .she is learning to sleep better though!
3.Gone are the days of  flying by the seat of your pants. It now requires a small village to get out of the house. is she fed , changed and where is a blanket, do you have the pacifier?  I feel the need to be prepared for every situation: blow outs , throw up, all that fun stuff . why call it a diaper bag its more like a 72 hour kit: diapers, clothes, bottles, formula, lotion, soap, burp cloth...... this has now become my purse . No longer are my needs first some how you learn to survive or get by as long as that sweet baby is taken care of. I find my self enjoying the simplest of things and realizing things I took for granted.
      Yes our life has definitely changed , but as the song "For Good" from wicked says " I do believe i have been change for the better... and because I knew you I have been changed for good."

With all of life's changes,  I find my self so grateful at the end of each day ! I sure love being a mom !

Monday, October 31, 2011

Hard decision...

Kinlee was so excited when I told her about Halloween! I told her what costume options she had, but she had to try them on to make her final decision.

A Witch? maybe...

  A Bunny? I think not !
 Not sure how I feel about the hot dog...
 Mrs. Clause, not my color
 A Smurf! Yes I think I'll go as a smurf !

Friday, October 28, 2011

Dreams Do Come True !

     As many of you know Damon and I married in December of 2004. I knew right off that I wanted to have a family. Growing up I always thought that you got married, had babies and would live happily ever after... Damon teases that he thought when he was younger if he even touched a girl she would get pregnant. This was so not the case and I never thought infertility would have been a battle that I would have to face. There were definitely highs and lows all along the road; one day I would feel fine with the lot I had been cast and the next I would find myself questioning my Heavenly Father as to why I had to go through this challenge.
     Over the years  I saw a handful of doctors and went  through a dozen different tests.  No on ever seemed to have an answer, until we found Dr. Leavitt. After our first appointment I had a great feeling about him, Damon even commented as we left his office "I like that guy!" Everything just seemed to click. However it still took some time for things to work out. I remember driving home one day from work and as I pulled in the garage I just broke into tears (I wish I could just blame it on all the hormones they were filling me with).  I felt defeated and as I sat in my car I prayed.  I told Heavenly Father that I couldn't take it anymore, 6 years was long enough.  I asked him to take this burden from me, that I couldn't carry it anymore.  If I wasn't meant to be a mother He needed to show me what I was suppose to be doing.  I poured my heart out to him, and after that I felt at peace; I knew it was in His hands.
     In early February I started to feel a little under the weather and as I was at the grocery store I thought to myself, I should buy a pregnancy test.  Over the years I had taken so many of them I almost talked myself out of it.  But I bought one and went home and as I saw a  faint "+" showing up on the test I couldn't believe my eyes!  In fact I didn't, so I took  it to my mom to ask if she saw the "+" symbol too and then I went to the doctor's to have them do a blood test to confirm  :)
     I was going to start this blog and go through my whole pregnancy journey, however seeing as Kinlee is now here that was a failed attempt.  I will say it was a wonderful experience to be able to be pregnant; even on the bad days I was grateful.  My birth experience was nothing that I expected!  After being in labor for 24 hours, my epidural wearing off, pushing with all I had, and then being told we had to do a C- section.  The pumped me with more medicine in my epidural but my body had already become immune to it so I was told there was no choice but to put me to sleep.  Damon had to leave at this point as they wont allow fathers in the operating room if your asleep.  This was the only time I cried as they had me kiss Damon goodbye.  The next thing I remember is waking up screaming as they were putting me back together, hearing them say "oh no, knock her back out."  I then woke up 2 hours later in a recovery room where Damon sat holding our sweet baby girl, Kinlee (9 Lbs 1oz 22 inches long and a full head of  dark hair).  I was told that she had turned posterior and that I had started to hemerage and that it was a good thing we acted when we did.  Although I didn't get to see her be born and have the "normal" birth experience, I was very grateful for modern medicine that got her here safely.  I was also grateful for a sweet husband who took care of me and Kinlee in the hospital as I recovered; that was the longest 4 days of my life and I don't think I could have made it with out him.
     Kinlee is full of drama; it sure took her along time to decide that she wanted to come to this earth.  When she finally got here she stirred up a lot of trouble as she made her grand entrance. She is such a strong spirit that knows what she wants.  I love her so much I can't believe she is mine :)  She puts a smile on my face every day.  I have dreamed since I was a little girl about "growing up" and becoming a mom.  Here is my proof that dreams do come true!

We blessed her at 12 days old so that Damon's parents could be here.  It was such a special day; Damon gave her the most beautiful blessing.  I am so grateful to my Heavenly Father for answering my prayers and sending this sweet angel down to us!